Monday, September 20, 2010

say goodbye.

"I like the dreams of the future(SO MUCH) better than the history of the past."
-Thomas Jefferson

Sometimes it's hard to say goodbye. It just feels easier to keep holding on. But in the long run it's usually a good idea to let go, it's the daring thing to do. It allows room for new things, for transformation. And maybe the goodbye isn't even forever, but you can't know until you really say goodbye and mean it. In some cases, goodbye is really the end, and good riddance! For this assignment, say goodbye to all the things you need to let go of: bad habits, dead people, alive people, ex-boyfriends and girlfriends, self-destructive feelings and behaviors, jobs, projects, re-occurring thoughts, etc.

Write it as a simple list:
Goodbye useless spending.
Goodbye bad grade.
Goodbye messy room.
Goodbye constant counting of every calorie that enters my mouth.
Goodbye constant planning of the future.
Goodbye criticizing myself.
Goodbye disrespect.
Goodbye neediness.
Goodbye helplessness.
Goodbye selfishness.
Goodbye parts of me that are not true reflections of who I really am.
Goodbye blaming myself for something God didnt want.
Goodbye thinking i am not worth it.
Goodbye thinking I'm not pretty enough.
Goodbye thinking he is the only one i could ever want.
Goodbye holding on to what he did to me.
Goodbye hurtful harmful words he said that aren't true.
Goodbye old boyfriend.
Goodbye believing that I'm never going to love anyone again (or that nobody is going to love me).
Goodbye interrupting people when they are talking.
Good bye everything that is keeping me from my powerful loving gracious mighty father!


make your list. write your list. share your list. please share it, because I care. It can be as long or as short as you like. And, most importantly, take a moment with each one to really say goodbye. This isn't a catalogue of your fears and faults, this is a ceremony to bid them farewell.

Thursday, September 16, 2010

everything new


i decided to start "everything new" in my life. everything is starting again. everything starts new. every day you can start new. every month. every year. every hour. it’s your choice. it’s your choice to breathe life into everything & it’s your choice to let your devils hold you & haunt you. it’s hard to let go. it’s hard to let yourself grow. sometimes you want your past to stay. for some reason you want to keep awful things in your mind because sometimes they make you realize how strong you are, & sometimes they make you realize that someday you may falter again. it’s a tough balance. to let go or hold on. you loved her once, you don’t want to move on. he hated you once, you don’t want to admit it made you strong. destroy what destroys you. i believe in you. sometimes the hardest part is admitting i believe in me. every second you have a choice. every second that goes by you can never get back. it’s your choice. everything is your choice.