a few of my favorite things

have you ever just woke up happy? Like really, really happy? I mean like smiling from ear to ear? I am not a morning person, not usually. But today was a beautiful morning, I woke up smiling and happy and feeling overwhelmed with blessings! I'm so excited for getting into not only graduate school, but my top choice, but even besides the obvious, I am thrilled for the way my life is turning out, I have so much to be thankful for. In honor of this happy mood, here is a list of a few of my favorite things:

Tanning, the beach, and summer (can't wait to have all of these in 2days, in Hawaii!)

Disneyland and fairytales

Traveling everywhere and anywhere

Chace Crawford and other beautiful men

Balloons, dresses, and heels

Glitter and pink

Ballet and dance

Libraries and reading for fun

Macaroons and other yummy treats

Zoey Deschanel and episodes of The New Girl

Holly Golightly in Breakfast at Tiffany's

Tea cups and Tea parties (yay to Robin and Aly's birthday in March)

Now of course this list could go on and on, but the point is- Oh the little things.

hard to believe

After reading these words I think to myself "yeah whoever wrote this insane cliche clearly never experienced college graduation." I often want to take all the power into my own hands, somehow find a way to make that one job opening be mine over the hundreds of others who applied, that graduate school see what a wonderful candidate I am and just send me an acceptance letter already, that internship to turn into something bigger, this family to need me for more hours, the list goes on and on. The point is, I want to be in control. I like my life when I am in control, and I have come to realize that for the majority of my life I have been. I like taking all the power into these hands and make lists and lists of planning and then implementing these plans. It is difficult for me to have no power, but at this moment that is exactly what I have. None. No power. No control. None. Obviously I'm freaking out, but after reading these words over and over again and then having lunch today with a dear friend who chatted to me about her plans and how now that she has done her part, the choice really isn't up to her. That's when it clicked. I have done everything I could up to this point, found ample opportunities, applied to everything I could possibly want to do at this point in my life, considered all my options and now I AM NOT IN CONTROL. So I can relax and enjoy Hawaii in in one week, and that, that is beautiful.

Monday morning

Each morning when I open my eyes I say to myself: I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn't arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I'm going to be happy in it.

P.s. This weekend I found a lady at the Point Loma farmer's market who sells these yummy things for one dollar each, one dollar! And she makes them herself, they almost taste as good as Le Macaron. I will be her most faithful client.

hearts are fixed

“Whenever you go out of doors, draw the chin in, carry the crown of the head high, and fill the lungs to the utmost; drink in the sunshine; greet your friends with a smile, and put soul into every handclasp. Do not fear being misunderstood and do not waste a minute thinking about your enemies. Try to fix firmly in your mind what you would like to do; and then without veering off direction, you will move straight to the goal. Keep your mind on the great and splendid things you would like to do, and then, as the days go gliding by, you will find yourself unconsciously seizing upon the opportunities that are required for the fulfillment of your desire, just as the coral insect takes from the running tide the element it needs. Picture in your mind the able, earnest, useful person you desire to be, and the thought you hold is hourly transforming you into the particular individual… Thought is supreme. Preserve a right mental attitude — the attitude of courage, frankness, and good cheer. To think right is to create. All things come through desire and every sincere prayer is answered. We become like that on which our hearts are fixed.”

-Elbert Hubbard


working on this

want but not now.

I want all of this

One day, but not now.

So, Prince Charming can hold off,

a little longer.

I'm not quite ready for him yet.

But you know I'll always be waiting for you.

xoxo

rainy day solution #326

if you can't go outside and you can't go ice skating, you must use your imagination

and you must go imaginary-ice-skating,

which is rather like ice skating, but with socks and a slippery wood floor.

Happy Monday

Even if Brady lost this one, I will still have a beautiful Monday because I had coffee, because I woke up early enough to make breakfast and do my hair, because my check came, because I had a blissful beautiful weekend, because I have a plan to get all my homework done this week, and mostly because I'm going to Vegas this weekend! Oh yes, it will be a happy lovely Monday.

someone new

I have thought about it many times.

Perhaps mostly because everyone besides myself seems to wonder when I'm going to find someone new who is actually worth the risk. But I don't let it get to me. I'm not looking for someone new, not right now. It's not that I'm far from ready because I'm still brokenhearted. No, it is not that at all, it's that I'm far from ready because I'm still doingme, I don't want to be in a relationship. I just started to find me.

There is a time for everything, and now is my time to grow. To grow strong and be whole in myself. Learn to live with myself, my scars and my memories. Learn how to always feel safe within and not let that one single frightened voice in my head (the ego) stop me from having an open heart and dare to love unlimited.

What has been, has been. What is now is now. The rest is still unwritten. But I'm not gonna settle, and that's just that.