It all means

Moral of the story (challenge):

Be happy now in the present! You are loved and there is so much for you to love. We are going to be fine, better than fine! I promise! If you are dying to fall in love with someone why not try yourself?

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RIGHT NOW

Until then I have love from: myself, God, mom, daddy, sisters, broski, friends.

And tonight Jaqui (who is the cutest sweetest ever!) and we are gonna get dressed up in red and glitter heels, go see our true love Justin Bieber with our other loves Ben and Jerry!

Enjoy this day however you spend it, think of all the love that surrounds you!

Remember: YOU are significant with or without another.

Reminder: I LOVE YOU!

Good for the soul:

Truly my soul finds rest in God;
my salvation comes from him.
Truly he is my rock and my salvation;
he is my fortress, I will never be shaken.

Yes, my soul, find rest in God;
my hope comes from him.
Truly he is my rock and my salvation;
he is my fortress, I will not be shaken.
My salvation and my honor depend on God;
he is my mighty rock, my refuge.
Trust in him at all times, you people;
pour out your hearts to him,
for God is our refuge.

Surely the lowborn are but a breath,
the highborn are but a lie.
If weighed on a balance, they are nothing;
together they are only a breath.
Do not trust in extortion
or put vain hope in stolen goods;
though your riches increase,
do not set your heart on them.

One thing God has spoken,
two things I have heard:
“Power belongs to you, God,
and with you, Lord, is unfailing love”;
and, “You reward everyone
according to what they have done.”

-Psalm 62

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With the day just around the corner, meaning less than an hour away I thought why not make a list of all the things I want in my future Valentine, so that when i find him, love doesn't make me blind. You should make a list of all things you want in your future Valentines too.

Here is a little list of mine. of course some of these are necessary and some would just be nice:

-Christian- Man after God's heart

- servant's heart

- honest and trustworthy

- caring

- has similar morals and values

- goal orientated

- makes decisions

- even tempered

- dependable

- enjoys surprising me

- makes me feel important

- wants me to grow as a person

- is not possessive or jealous

- supports my ideas

- gets along with my family

- likes sports

- plays the guitar (if he can sing, that'd be nice)

- takes care of himself

- will play with my hair

- a good listener

- can make me laugh

- passionate about something

- romantic

- great smile

- into sports

- self- confident

- hard-working

- respects me

-can solve a rubik's cube

- enjoys to dance

- patient

- able to ask for help

and number one with a bullet: A NICE BUTT! (;

Point being: NEVER settle for less than you deserve

#12

A Friend's love.

I think we often leave out an extremely special form of love- the love I am referring to is the love you have for a best friend. It is unique and so important to have. It is more than just affection for someone; it's a deep underlying connection. My friend's have been here for me when my sisters and mom have been too far away. The comfort of knowing you can tell them everything, and not have worry about being judged. The first people you tell when something exciting happens, or when something scary happens. The people you turn to when you need to vent. The people you can laugh at because they will just laugh back at you. The people you need to tell things to so your brain doesn’t explode. The people who can help make you feel better when you’re having a tough day, the ones you turn to for advice. The people you have those crazy nights together that you will never forget but often want to. And maybe most importantly, the ones you tell all your secrets to, especially boy secrets.

Some people think it is creepy how best friends say “I love you” to each other often. But I think when you love someone; you can’t help but sound at least a little creepy. Love is love. No matter if it’s for your Mom, your dog or pet turtle, a boy, or your best friend. And when you are lucky enough to have people to love, and be loved, you need to let them know how thankful you are for that, and how much you love them back. Therefore with fears of sounding creepy let your friends know you love them and are so thankful for their friendship and the memories you have shared with each other.

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A Friend is a brother who use to be a bother!

Yes, since I wrote about my love for my sisters, I figured it would be harsh to leave Andy out. So today let's talk about brothers. My brother was "blessed" to have three sisters in his life, yeah I know lucky guy. Having three sisters who all seem to love hearing our voices, you would be correct to say Andrew never got more than a three word sentence in an hour long conversation, but if he did those three words often consisted of teasing and making us cry. My big brother use to be such a bully- I mean he would make fun of everything I did, wore, ate, everything! It is no exaggeration when I say that Andy is the person in this world who has made me cry the most.

So how can I love him you ask? I ask myself the same darn thing! haha, just

kidding. Over the years Andrew has become a great brother who I know I can count on. And we have always been close, I mean we don't sit there and have sister moments but I know if I need someone to talk or cry to he is there and vise versa, if Janine and Evalynn are reading this you both know what I am talking about, maybe even Auntie Aly (; I love Andy's funny jokes and his crude humor, his amazing cooking, and his adventurous heart, his random visits to San Diego where he buys me lunch and ice cream, and his encouraging words and I love how my first memory of him involves him feeding me cereal and saying "one bite for you, okay now my turn" as he took three bites. My brother has become a truly good guy who has such a bright future ahead of him, and I love him.

I know it is a little harder to express your love to your brothers than to your sisters, if you have both, you know what I am talking about. But I challenge you to try. Try telling your brother you love him and you are thankful for him and his overprotectiveness and his criticism, because it made you safe and gave you thicker skin. (At least it did in my case)

*yes, the picture above is me and Andy.

#10

Your love for God.

I wrote about God's unconditional crazy beautiful love for you, but what about the love you return to Him?

I haven't been sleeping very well lately, I have been making long lists of things i need to do while I lay in bed at night. I toss and turn sweaty and yucky removing my comforter, then my sheets, then my pajama shirt, then 10 minutes later I am cold and thirsty. This lasts throughout the night. Last night while this routine continued, I decided to put this time I waste laying in bed to some good use. So I began to pray, and you know, I really wanted to pray. Why in the world does that matter? it's been a little while in the past couple months (really? months?) of loving, loving, loving everything else like design and the gym and photography and friends. and just not feelin' it with Jesus. You know when you continue the whole reading and praying everyday with little to no emotion, just doing it to check it off my to do list and hope that He will give me some of the things I pray for, what a yucky praying heart, I know. I mean can you imagine if God did this to us? If he had that kind of love for us? Thank God, He loves us with a radical love unlike no other.

So last night at 2 am, i just lay awake praying for people, for myself, for the world, I just prayed. It was like this real deal where I wanted to talk to God and I knew that He heard me. I was praying about different things... and then it hit me like- "hillary, you're praying. Its too late to be awake, and you're praying. since when did you feel like just straight-up talking to God like this? Since when did you begin to feel this intense crazy Jesus?"

And then I was all of a sudden crying a lot, because oh my goodness this is not from me. I didn't suddenly give myself a passion for God in like one day. I just kind of asked God, with my stupid words for praying and everything and my heart is new, its like someone else's heart, definitely not like mine. That's what Jesus does when you strive to love Him! He transforms hearts, it's so cliche-sounding that I hate saying it- I can't stand when people say things about Jesus that just sound so good and so clean, like He is an accessory to their perfectly assembled life. and I want you to know that it is not that way with my life, even if I only talk about optimistic things; I'm total crap- make sure you get that. I am by no means claiming to have a passionate fire-burning love for God, but I am claiming to desire that. I also know He changes people's heart because He changed mine and I long to love God the way He loves me. It's like "jeez!" it kills me! How can I be so selfish and God still love me so. If you're still reading this, you're maybe thinking, "Why does the all powerful God of the absolute universe even bother loving us if we don't return it? That doesn't make sense Hill?" yeah i know, it is overwhelming, I don't get it... that's what I'm crying about! it's ridiculous!

It doesn't make any sense its been days and weeks and months of me loving, loving, loving other stuff, and now I am realizing how little I have loved God, hence the tears that were pouring last night.

So I was sobbing at two in the morning because He blows my mind. He is mine and yours and He is allowing me and you and you the privilege of loving Him. SO TAKE IT! I challenge you to be completely obsessively possessively passionately in love with God. Love him more than you love life itself because He's the reason you have it. So let's all take this challenge together; strive to love God as much as He loves us.