You're still an innocent

I guess you really did it this time, left yourself in your warpathLost your balance on a tightrope, lost your mind tryin' to get it back

Wasn't it easier in your lunchbox days? Always a bigger bed to crawl into

Wasn't it beautiful when you believed in everything? And everybody believed in you?

It's all right, just wait and see

Your string of lights is still bright to me

Oh, who you are is not where you've been

You're still an innocent

There's some things you can't speak of, but at night you'll live it all again

Wasn't it easier in your firefly-catchin' days?

And everything out of reach, someone bigger brought down to you

Wasn't it beautiful runnin' wild 'til you fell asleep? Before the monsters caught up to you?

It's all right, just wait and see

Your string of lights is still bright to me

Oh, who you are is not where you've been

You're still an innocent

It's okay, life is a tough crowd, 32 and still growin' up now

Who you are is not what you did

You're still an innocent

Time turns flames to embers, you’ll have new Septembers, Every one of us has messed up too

Lives change like the weather, I hope you remember

Today is never too late to, be brand new

It's all right, just wait and see

Your string of lights are still bright to me

Oh, who you are is not what you did,

You're still an innocent

Short story: This past summer was one of the toughest most challenging times in my life. I learned about heartbreak heartache and the importance of water proof mascara. I lived in constant guilt and pain for the choices I had made and the consequences I faced. The hardest part of all was telling my mom about my mistakes and allowing her to love me regardless of my flaws, and then learning to love and forgive myself. Yet again God proved His amazingness this weekend-- I still almost 9 months later thought my mom was disappointed with me and unable to forgive me, but this weekend during our fantastic getaway to the beach of Mexico we were talking and the talking turned into crying and she said, you know that Taylor Swift song, "your string of lights is still bright to be though..." she tried to sing it as best she could, then she said "it is my song to you. Hillary please know that you are forgiven. you are loved. and you are beautiful. Stop punishing yourself, it is time to heal and move on. Your string of lights is still bright to me, who you are is NOT what you've done. So please forgive yourself sweet doll of mine."