Thursday, May 17, 2012

my story, your story

so here's the thing. you think you'll never stop crying. you think you'll never feel good enough. you think that everything's a part of this horrible pattern that makes up your life. you think nothing will ever change. 
and then one day, you change. you wake up one morning and that pervasive sadness is just kind of gone. you think about him and you can't for the life of you remember what it was like to be in love with him or what you even liked about him. you walk through life and one day, you think, you know? i am good enough. and you're kind of surprised it took you this long, and you realize that no matter how easy it is to hate yourself...it is so much better to love yourself. 
and you know the best part, darling? you don't need him. you wake up one day alone in your bed and you realize this is what you needed all along, JUST YOU
so here's to you. here's to realizing your good enough, and that no one else needs to realize and tell you for you to know. 

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

how i made him feel


I’m in love with a girl who’s in love with the world
and I can’t help but follow
though I know someday she is bound to go away
and stay over the rainbow
gotta learn how to let her go
over the rainbow 

Monday, May 7, 2012

graduating


It all ended two days ago,
and I'm at a loss as to where to begin again.
I'm happy that it is over,
I've been waiting a long time for college to be over.
But now, I haven't a plan.
I always have a plan.
But I think not having one suits me well.


I have possibilities in the works though.
1. Find a job that I really, really enjoy 
2. Join the Peace Corps

3. Work on writing my book a little every day.
(I made a decent dent in it today!)
4. Get a puppy.
5. Plan travel trips to visit friends around the U.S.
6. Save earnings for 'My Grand Paris Adventure!'
7. Learn how to make Chocolate Pecan pie
8. Redecorate my room
9. Move to Mexico, permanently

10. (Fall in love)

The last is in parenthesis because I barely dare to hope.
I want to be content just living my life in my long skirts and bare feet,
a little puppy trailing behind me,
and a diary full of dreams in my hands.
Yes, that's the life I want.
Here I go to live it.
Wish me luck.