escape

this weekend i had a planned escape to a beautiful place, the most beautiful. with adorable children who love to cuddle! and i love it there. and i love to visit. here's the thing though, i left a situation unresolved, i left with unfinished business, for a lack of a better term, sometimes when things stop making sense it’s best to slowly remove yourself from everything & become a secret little ghost. unplugging your phone, leaving the internet, refusing to speak. you can drift through your days in a fog & not think much about anything because thinking would lead to too many things & your frail little heart may be too full of sadness to really want to bring those things up. that's what i tried to do this weekend, remove myself from a situation, hoping it would disappear or becoming more clear- well my handsome little ghosties, i realized this; usually this hiding away only leads to being a ghost much longer than anticipated. these ghostly vacations do not solve anything. they store your problems in a locked case deep in your glass hearts & once the box is full it will explode & then & then & then you’ll be haunted. let’s try something new. ghost to ghost secret: it will be tough & it may hurt a tiny bit but think of how bad a glass-heart explosion could hurt! grab my hand & please listen: being a ghost is oh so easy but is it as satisfying as we first believed? no no no. so let’s change. it will take a very brave heart. we must say what we believe! fight for what we believe! never back down. we must call on our close friends when we just feel like escaping. we must NOT escape. we must say yes to invitations to be surrounded by people who truly care. we must say no when we mean no. we must say yes when our heart says ‘yes yes yes’ but our fears make us want to say ‘no no no’. we must TALK. we must share our silly stories. we must not fear how we come off to strangers. we must believe that the people who will love us & stay with us will be drawn to everything we do, every piece of our unlocked heart they see. being a ghost is quite easy & the easy way hardly ever leads to the most rewarding outcome. so no escaping from problems or situations anymore, im facing this head on, im figuring out what i want and letting it be known. it's fair and it's good.

p.s. i loved seeing my little baby Jeidy, please continue praying for her future, she is so important to me.